Time's forever frozen, still

Over a month ago, I lost one of my family members. My late aunty lost the battle against her disease.

It shocked my family. We always thought that she will be as healthy as ever.. We thought that she will be able to teach again and will be able to reunite with our family. But the reality says no... 

Her oldest daughter, 15 year old, can not hide her regrets. She told me that her late mother asked her to bathe her, but she rejected her mother's wish because she was hurried to go to school. Who knew that was her last wish for her daughter.

Not only for her daughters, but also my mom. She's in grief. She lost her closest sister.

Recently,  my mom told me "I'm sad." every time I reach her, of course it makes me feel that way as well.

Maybe,
I don't know the feeling of being left out
I don't know the feeling of losing someone precious.
I don't know the feeling of missing someone who will never return.
I don't know how hard life is after the left of someone who's very important to our lives.

But one thing I tried to always linger on my mind; I know this is not getting easier but we are getting stronger.

And then this song lyrics by Ed Sheeran suddenly comes out in my mind:

We keep this love in a photograph 
We made these memories for ourselves 
Where are our eyes were never closing 
Hearts were never broken
And time's forever frozen, still

So you can keep me 
Inside the pocket of your ripped jeans
Holding me close til our eyes meet
You won't ever be alone, wait for me to come home